Spring Break...and Tom.

I want to go to bed, but my head is full, and I can't sleep.

I am technically on Spring Break right now, but I'm on "duty" for Res Life, which means I don't get much a break, really. I'm pretty much on lockdown mode. Well, not entirely...I mean, I can roam around campus all day, I'm only on lockdown in my building after 6pm.

But holy freakin' cow is it so boring here. It's completely empty. I think there's maybe two residents left in the building?? *sigh*

It's okay, even though I'm totally bored, I'm quite enjoying it...I can't remember the last time I was "bored." It's been fun being lazy. I do still get up at about 8 every morning, but that's just in my blood by this point. I've just pretty much been roaming around my apartment doing nothing. It's kinda actually great.

But I've decided: starting tomorrow I have GOT to be productive. Time to actually do homework...maybe...we'll see. That's the plan anyway.

Tom emailed today. He's doing great! He has a new-ish companion. They get along great, and Tom says he's cares deeply about the people they're teaching, and Tom really appreciates that. They just had a wonderful baptism a little while ago, and another investigator set a date to get baptized into the church on her birthday. They've been meeting and teaching lots of people, and Tom is hopeful about a lot of them. He loves the missionary work. I love him. 84 more days.

What to do?

Today marks 4 years and 11 months with the love of my life. Ya know what that means? The big FIVE YEAR anniversary is a month away!!!

Five years. Holy freakin' moly. Half a decade. How amazingly wonderful.

Although, I'll admit, I am pretty much incredibly upset we won't get to be together for it. It's just that it's such a big event. Half a stinkin' decade!!! And we're 1500 miles apart. *sigh* Ah well...we have the rest of forever, right?

Here's the dilemma I'm in when it comes to our anniversary (aside from the fact that we're on opposite sides of the country): What the heck do I get him???

It's a big deal, five years. I've got to put together the most epic anniversary package ever. EVER. I want to make him something truly special. It's harder because if he was here, I could do something for him, but nope. I have to send something. And it has to be something extraordinary. Because he's extraordinary, and he's made my life extraordinary.

So far this is all I've got:

I just finished it last night. I'm pretty happy with how it turned out. It's a sketch of this picture:

But I need more. I need some other awesome ideas to make and send him...

I'll come up with something....it's just that time is creeping away, and April 14 will be here before I know it!! Hopefully I can be productive this week while on Spring Break...

When God Made You

My mom made my day, no, probably my month, yesterday.

We're driving in the car, and she starts talking about a new song she heard...but it was how she talked about it that just made me feel lighter than air:

"I found the prefect song for you and Tom to dance to at your wedding..."

Yes, this is the same mother who said she didn't want anything to do with my wedding, she wasn't even going to be going...although, I'm pretty sure it was an empty threat - she wouldn't really miss my wedding, right?

Anywho, so that was a huge warm fuzzy...but then she kept going, kept explaining the song to me, and the way she explained it just kept making me feel better and better...

"It's called, 'When God Made You' and it's this guy singing about how God must have been thinking of him when He created the woman he loves, because the woman is perfect for the man. Isn't that perfect for you and Tom? Oh, I just kept thinking "How perfect" while I was listening to it. 'Cause you two were made for each other. Oh, you gotta hear it..."

I was a pretty happy daughter...

...and girlfriend. I then successfully sat daydreaming in the car about dancing with Thomas on our wedding night...mmm...

Here's the song! Enjoy!

97

My heart is breaking tonight.

Tom and I used to play Pachelbel Canon together on piano.

I've been looking up youtube videos of Canon.

I have an exam at 8am. T-7 and a half hours.

I should be studying.

I can't.

Tom is clouding my head.

Ya know, I've been thinking. This little crush I have on that other guy?...I think we called him Jake...yeah, I think it's a good thing.

It's only making me miss Tom more.

So much more.

Ugh.

Maybe not such a good thing...it's painful.

I can't wait till he comes home.

97 days.

97.

Ooofda.

So close.

I can't wait to be with him again.

I can't wait to be done missing him.

I can't wait to throw my arms around his neck and breathe him in.

I can't wait to laugh with him.

I can't wait to tease each other.

I can't wait.

I am so in love, it's a little ridiculous.

But completely wonderful.

97 days.

97.

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It's gorgeous outside today.

It's 40 degrees.

Crystal blue skies.

The sun is shining.

And you can just feel spring around the corner.

It's putting me in a much better mood than I was in yesterday.

Ya know what else helps?

Having amazing friends.

I have amazing friends.