Death Isn't Always Morbid

I was thinking about my death today. Yes, I know, morbid. I don't know why I was, it just popped into my head randomly. I don't know about you, but I want to be cremated when I die. I'll donate all my organs, whatever I can (what do I need them for after I'm dead, anyway?) and then I want my ashes spread into the wind, let it take me wherever it wants me to go.

I was thinking about my funeral. I don't want a funeral. I want a party. I want upbeat music, my favorite tunes. I want lots of food. I want a bouncy castle. I  don't want people to cry, I want them to laugh. My death will not (I am determined) be a sad affair because I will have lived my life to it's fullest and everyone will know how rich my life was.

Now, when I say "live my life to the fullest," my idea of that concept is probably different than yours. When I think of that phrase, I don't think of things like skydiving, or climbing a mountain, or doing crazy stunts like that. I think of random moments. Small random moments filled with people. Filled with people, love, and laughter. That to me is living life to the fullest. It's about smiling when you want to cry, singing when you want to scream, dancing when you want to run away from everything, and praying when you want to give up. It's about making the absolute most out of every moment. It's about refusing to see the glass half empty and always finding that silver lining. Call me cheesy. Call me naive. It's who I am. And I believe it was makes the difference between just a life and a good life.

And the difference between a good life and a great life? All those listed above and the concept of living for others. Be selfless in life. It's amazing how being selfless can make you feel so good. Help others. Even if it's small things like holding a door open, smiling as you walk past a stranger, hugging your friend hello (or goodbye), telling someone you appreciate them. When you live for others, life is more rewarding. At least that's how it's been for me. It seems like the more I live to help others, the more I love life. I find that surrounding oneself in positive relationships brings so much happiness.

When I die, I hope people remember me as the girl who was always smiling, the girl who loved life and lived it to the fullest. I want to be remembered as someone who did all that she could for others. The girl who loved to laugh, be silly, and have fun. The girl who was carefree and loved the simple pleasures in life. The girl who saw the silver lining in every stormcloud and made the most of every curveball life threw her way. The girl who made every moment the best moment of her life. When I die, people aren't going to cry because I'm gone, they are going to smile because they'll know my life was a great one.