*sigh*

I want to tell you I love you. I want to whisper it in your ear, watch your eyes close and that grin spread across your face as I say it, and then get a great big kiss in return, followed by "I love you more."


I crave to have your arms wrapped around me again, to be wrapped in your tight embrace. I crave to fall asleep in your arms. I crave for those moments where you think I am sleeping, and you softly brush the hair out of my face, kiss my forehead and whisper you love me.

I long to laugh with you. To screw around together, wrestle together, play together. To make each other laugh so hard our stomachs hurt and we can't breathe. I long to laugh with you, the big, huge, belly-laugh; the obnoxiously loud laugh that I am not embarassed to laugh around you.

I would give anything to hear your voice again. To hear you laugh, hear you sing silly made-up songs to me, hear you call me pet names. I miss your voice.

I miss you so much it hurts. It physically hurts. I get butterflies, the bad kind, thinking about you. My heart aches for you. It's like there's a hole inside my chest. I wish I could just fastforward till July 2011. I miss everything about you. I love you.